Real Talk: Why I’m Taking A Break

So… I posted on twitter, and a short blog on about taking a break from writing blogs and stuff. Since SWTOR is patching right now, and i’ve been playing Titanfall since like… Whenever I woke up, I think I should talk about why I am really taking a break.

I generally think my content is really good, I make grammar mistakes every now and then, I am in no way perfect. I think I write really well, good content, long reads, good paragraphs, etc. Like, I never wanted recognition for the stuff I write for, I’m not looking to be famous, or anything like that. I mean, I’ve always liked comments, and questions. I’ve met some readers in-game and stuff, it’s all fine and dandy. I don’t know if my writing was taken seriously though. Yeah, it’s good user content for I dig the site, I like blogging there, I get some hits, and stuff. I’m not there to preach everything, my word goes, and my games are the best. Defiantly not the case. I’m not talking about mainstream games, like ESO, Wildstar, Guild Wars 2, that’s not me. Sure I posted a lot about FFXIV, and went back and forth between lots of games. I never did a real “Review” of a game, like a point system, I think they are boring and linear. Instead, I do what I did. Posted about what i’m doing, how i’m playing the game, and etc. I see nothing wrong with that. I’m not bored of MMOs, in fact, i’m paying for two subs, WoW, and SWTOR. I was thinking to myself, man… I can post a lot more content playing these games. Hell, playing more would give me more to write about, but i’m straining myself playing two. I don’t make money blogging, I don’t get anything out of it really, except for the reader count, which varies. Am I disappointed with how many hits I get? I guess you could say so.

What gets me the most though, and i’ll be honest about it. I’ve done a lot of user content for Solid stuff. Honestly, if i’m going to be honest with myself, my content is good. The best? Far from it, but good nonetheless. They have “spotlight” blogs. Most of the spotlight people don’t even post anymore, and here I am, posting weekly. Is this my ego shining? Yeah, I guess so. I don’t like to think I have a strong ego, but when I do, it shines pretty bright. What am I going to do? Ask them for me to put unto that? Nah, that’s way to greedy of me to even think that. So, what am I to do about that? Yeah, I would love to have more readers, and meet more people. I think that is a wonderful thing to want really. I don’t think that’s greedy at all. Maybe, if I played more popular games, I would be open to a bigger audience. But, i’m not playing those extremely popular games. Well, World Of Warcraft is popular, but most people are on the hate train of that game. Admit it, we’ve all bashed that game. Some people have bashed it, even when they haven’t played it! The nerve of some people right?

Alright, let’s go back to I’ve blogged there for years now, or at least it feels that way. I feel like, it’s a part of my gaming life now, to talk about it freely. It’s like writing poetry, you express your feelings. I also write poetry, and I do the same thing for gaming post. I express my feelings towards the game. Nerdy right? Gaming Gospel has been around for awhile. I wish I could say I post FOR the site, instead of AT. I’m not saying as a job, more as a hobby. Hell, i’m in the wrong business if I want to get paid for what I write. I’m not THAT good. So, what am I going to do about the situation? Well, i’m taking a break for realsies. I think that is the best course of action for me write now. Sort of burnt out. I love writing, I write 2-3 poems every day. So, instead of playing FFXIV, or Guild Wars 2. I’m playing what i’ve already told you. I mean, I bought Guild Wars 2, and haven’t given it a REAL chance. I think that’s why i’m not talking about it as much. I don’t have enough game play of it, to actually give some sort of opinion about it. You know? Maybe I should give it a chance, who knows… I could love it, and never touch anything again. I highly doubt that, but hey, it could happen.

So, i’ve expressed my feelings about my break, and all that fancy stuff. I’ll be back posting on the site in about a month or so. Thanks for reading, hope this clears some things up.



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